Uncat­e­go­rized Ink

My blog has been quiet for weeks. Work. Art. The hol­i­days. Life. Blog­ging kept get­ting pushed fur­ther back on my to-​​​​do list. In the absence of blog­ging I have redis­cov­ered the art of jour­nal­ing. I have jour­naled vol­umes from the time I was a teenager. Since the onset of the dig­i­tal rev­o­lu­tion, I have jour­naled lit­tle. Instead, I have blogged, which has given me a won­der­ful out­let for writ­ing as well as con­nect­ing with oth­ers, some­thing my jour­nal has never been able to pro­vide. Writ­ing is a soli­tary expe­ri­ence. Blog­ging helps take the edge off the iso­la­tion. And yet the pub­lic … Keep read­ing …

Where Have I Been? Art­ing it Up!

I have neglected my blog the past 10 days and not just because of our Amer­i­can Thanks­giv­ing hol­i­day  —  I have been hav­ing hot flashes of cre­ativ­ity. My writ­ing cave has become an art stu­dio lately with me in the grip of col­lage fever. Some­times peo­ple ask if my art is for sale. I have sold a few pieces over the years, but it’s usu­ally by hap­pen­stance. Like many cre­ative peo­ple, I am more inter­ested in the cre­ative process than in attempts at mar­ket­ing. I started doing col­lage art about 5 years ago. Slowly but surely my own style and pre­ferred tech­niques and … Keep read­ing …

You are the Universe

I made this col­lage last night with paper from an old hym­nal and other paper sources. I dis­tressed with Tim Holz dis­tress ink and with glazing.

I love to do col­lage art. Espe­cially lately. In my writ­ing cave I have an assort­ment of art sup­plies, of old mag­a­zines and scrap­book­ing paper bun­dles, of dis­tress inks and paints and glaze and ephemera galore. Last night I had a spot of time, and with my renewed rigor to take care of my soul, I gave that time to myself to create.

I never know which direc­tion a col­lage will take me. I don’t know how it will look when it’s done and if you asked me, “What are you mak­ing?” I’d answer, “I don’t know ’til I’m done.”

This is the process of artistry. The artist  has to show up and start doing the deal to dis­cover what the deal is. The art emerges as the artist sur­ren­ders to the cre­ative process. It’s kind of like truth telling. You don’t know what the chain reac­tion is going to look like until to reveal the truth.

In her bril­liant book, The Artist’s Way, writer Julia Cameron says this:

The act of mak­ing art exposes a soci­ety to itself. Art brings things to  light. It illu­mi­nates us. It sheds light on our lin­ger­ing dark­ness. It casts a beam into the heart of our dark­ness and says, “See?” 

I  love that. Art casts light on our dark­ness. This reminds me of the descrip­tion of the cre­ative process described in the first pages of the Bible:

In the begin­ning God cre­ated the heav­ens and the earth.  Now the earth was form­less and empty, darkness was over the sur­face of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hov­er­ing over the waters.And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.  God saw that the light was good,and he sep­a­rated the light from the dark­ness.  God called the light “day,” and the dark­ness he called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morn­ing — the first day.

We are cre­ative beings, no doubt. When we cre­ate, whether it be art, poetry, a new inven­tion or a home­cooked meal, we are par­tic­i­pat­ing in the cre­ative process of cre­ation itself. Kind of like what Carl Sagan said, “You are the uni­verse expe­ri­enc­ing itself.” 

Cre­ativ­ity is … see­ing some­thing that doesn’t exist already. You need to find out how you can bring it into being and that way be a play­mate with God. — Michele Shea

Women are incred­i­bly cre­ative beings. We pro­cre­ate, we makes nests of our homes and sew quilts. We paint the kitchen and ago­nize over which wall­pa­per is just right for the din­ing room. We learn to sten­cil and cro­chet. We cre­ate scrap­books as mem­ory hold­ers for the fam­ily. We play music and sing lul­la­bies. Women cre­ate ways to make com­mu­nity and explore the bound­aries of friend­ship and heal­ing. Women are ever shift­ing with our art­ful expres­sions. Have you been to Etsy lately? Women have unlim­ited depths of cre­ative power.
For cre­ative power to flow, the artist must be unin­hib­ited, free from the harsh cen­sors within and with­out who tell her, “You have no busi­ness play­ing with paint.”  What is really being said here is, “You have noth­ing worth express­ing.” To shut down the artist is to shut down a part of the uni­verse, of God’s glo­ri­ous cre­ation, from emerg­ing from dark­ness to light. It is to quiet the voice of God with a scold.

There are many forces at work in a woman’s life to quench her artistry. She will face these drag­ons of doubt from the crib to the grave.  This is why we need one another. We need to enter the arena of self-​​doubt and help our sis­ters slay the mon­sters.  When fear keeps a woman uncre­ative it is like a poet who has lost her voice or  a blog­ger her blog.   But here’s the rub : when drag­ons come upon us to block our way, we must then not set­tle for defend­ing our space, but find new ways of cre­at­ing as we stare into those red glow­ing eyes that would kill us. Make the dragon a friend to the art. Slay the dragon with courage and dis­cover that under the roar is fear want­ing to be free. A slayed dragon is courage born.

There is a vital­ity, a life force, an energy, a quick­en­ing  that is trans­lated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expres­sion is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost. — Martha Graham


Do not under­es­ti­mate the power of your cre­ativ­ity. What you make, what you cre­ate, is only pos­si­ble by You. No one else can make it like you. I can’t sew like Ari­anna, or paint like Deb­o­rah. I col­lage much dif­fer­ent than Kelli Rae and I sure as hell can’t cook like Paula, or dec­o­rate like Martha. But with the drag­ons befriended I can col­lage like Pam, I can write and blog in the unique voice that is mine alone, I can sto­ry­tell like no other. Art helps me recover my lost cre­ative soul. Art helps me recover my buried self. The artis­tic process is then an act of spir­i­tual heal­ing that rejoins the frac­tured soul with the uni­verse.  We are meant to Cre­ate the Uni­verse with God. 

So what about you? How are you express­ing the uni­verse through cre­ativ­ity? Feel free to add links to pho­tos, blog posts, etc… that show your cre­ativ­ity in action. Let’s inspire one another!

Techno Goof

I’ve been on a blog break for the last few weeks. Last week­end I spent a large effort orga­niz­ing old posts from my for­mer blog, How God Messed Up My Religion.What I did not real­ize is that these updates were being emailed to my sub­scribers … as in HUNDREDS OF EMAILS!!! If you were affected by this, I am so sorry!!! I hope you’ll con­tinue to sub­scribe to my blog in spite of my techno clum­si­ness. In other news, I am excited about some new changes I will be launch­ing this month with my blog. Keep an eye out for … Keep read­ing …

My Cave

This is a bit of art I made a while back, a mixed media col­lage piece. Some how this quote came to me, prob­a­bly born from the fact that I refer to my office as my Writ­ing Cave. sud­denly this quote takes on an entirely new per­spec­tive, doesn’t it? (this post is an exper­i­ment, my first ever Mobile Post! Not sure how often I’ll do this, but it is fun to think of as an option!!)

Don’t Find Your Place. Cre­ate It. Then Quote It and Art It and Pin It…

KII found this say­ing while brows­ing through a mag­a­zine in search of my next image for a col­lage project I was tin­ker­ing with. I tore out of the mag­a­zine and straight away taped it on the wall of my writ­ing cave. It’s a nice, pithy say­ing. The kind of slo­gan you might find on an inspi­ra­tional framed poster in a therapist’s office. And is it just me or are we being flooded with inspir­ing quotes lately? Maybe it’s because of Pin­ter­est. Many folks on Pin­ter­est have a Quotes Board includ­ing myself. In fact, just last night I repinned this insight­ful patch … Keep read­ing …

Do You Pinterest?
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The newest and one of the fastest grow­ing social net­works blaz­ing like fire across the world wide web is Pin­ter­est, a site that cen­ters on sub­scribers shar­ing images on focused top­ics of their choice. Images are found online and assigned a pin­board. For exam­ple, included among my assort­ment of boards are What Curvy Women Like Me Wear. Images, in the form of squares, are pinned on this board of var­i­ous items of cloth­ing I either own or fan­tasy own­ing, like the red bomb­shell swim­suit I just pinned last night from the Pinup Girl Cloth­ing.  I also have other boards that are … Keep read­ing …

Like Mother, like daugh­ter : Her First Tattoo

When my daugh­ter was 2 years old I found her attempt­ing to draw flow­ers on her leg with a magic marker. I laughed out­loud at her obvi­ous mim­icry, for I had flow­ers tat­toed on my leg. Dur­ing her entire child­hood and ado­les­cence, she has watched her mom get more tat­tooed on all four limbs. When Rose became a teenager, she began ask­ing when could she get a tat­too? I had no trou­ble with this ques­tion, explain­ing to her that in the state of Ore­gon, you have to be 18 years old to legally get a tat­too from a licensed tat­too artist. … Keep read­ing …

Dragon Girl with the Eleven Tattoo

I am a woman who likes to find omens. I search for signs and clues that there is an Unseen Force greater than me at work in my life. When Unla­dy­like was being sched­uled for release, I rel­ished the idea of the orig­i­nal release date of 11/​​11/​​11.  How prophetic is this date! A once in a life­time, in a mil­len­nium for the 11’s to be dated in trip­li­cate.  I have an inter­est­ing his­tory with eleven that began with a dream. Sev­eral years ago I dreamt that I was get­ting a num­ber eleven tat­tooed on my right hand, the hand I write … Keep read­ing …

The Writ­ing Sign

I didn’t sleep well. I tossed and turned most of the night. I had fit­ful dreams. In one dream frame I was hold­ing a bro­ken lap­top.  At times I prayed, Can  I make this dead­line? I am a writer. I am writ­ing my first book. I have a con­tract with a small inde­pen­dent pub­lisher out of Cal­i­for­nia called Civ­i­tas Press.  We had an agree­ment that I would deliver a pub­lish­able man­u­script by Octo­ber 11th. That was six months ago. All sum­mer I have holed up to write Unla­dy­like : Resist­ing the Injus­tice of Inequal­ity in the Church.  I knew I … Keep read­ing …

Chris­tians for Bib­li­cal Equality

Over the week­end I was for­tu­nate enough to make it to the Sat­ur­day ses­sions for the Chris­tians for Bib­li­cal Equal­ity con­fer­ence in nearby Seat­tle, Wash­ing­ton.  CBE is an inter­na­tional orga­ni­za­tion devoted to pro­mot­ing equal­ity and mutu­al­ity between men and women. They have a robust web­site filled with resources such as schol­arly bib­li­cal arti­cles that show how the Bible is not sex­ist after all and that God (nor Paul) are misog­y­nis­tic. I was so sur­prised by how many inter­na­tion­als were among the 200 or so atten­dees. I heard peo­ple speak­ing in Chi­nese and Span­ish and there were sev­eral broth­ers present who … Keep read­ing …

Wel­come to my Writ­ing Cave

 This is my desk stacked with books on the topic of gen­der and equal­ity in the tribe known as Chris­t­ian.  See that lit­tle vial?  It’s an essen­tial oil that’s sup­posed to stim­u­late clar­ity in think­ing when it’s scent is inhaled. Yep. Between Red Bull, cof­fee and inhalents, I have increased my writ­ing power.    Peek­ing out from behind the books that tower above my lap­top is a Dream Big  card from one of my fave artists,Kelli Rae Roberts. I can’t remem­ber where I found this writ­ing angel, but she has hov­ered above my desk for sev­eral years now. I love what … Keep read­ing …

Wel­come to my Writ­ing Cave

 This is my desk stacked with books on the topic of gen­der and equal­ity in the tribe known as Chris­t­ian.  See that lit­tle vial?  It’s an essen­tial oil that’s sup­posed to stim­u­late clar­ity in think­ing when it’s scent is inhaled.Yep. Between Red Bull, cof­fee and inhalents, I have increased my writ­ing power.    Peek­ing out from behind the books that tower above my lap­top is a Dream Big  card from one of my fave artists,Kelli Rae Roberts. I can’t remem­ber where I found this writ­ing angel, but she has hov­ered above my desk for sev­eral years now. I love what she says, … Keep read­ing …

The March for Pride and Redemption

T-​​​​shirt avail­able HERE “The courts over­turned the legal­ity of same-​​​​sex mar­riage,” said the young woman in con­ver­sa­tion with me about gay rights. “I watched how it hurt my mom and her part­ner…” her voice paused as tears filled her eyes, “It hurt me, too. They love each other and they just want the same rights as other cou­ples.” As the words tum­bled out of her, I flash-​​​​backed to 2004. The bat­tle for  DOMA raged across Ore­gon and much of the nation (DOMA = Defense of Mar­riage Act). The faith cir­cles I ran with at that time raged back. I was … Keep read­ing …

The Last Tes­ta­ment of Mad­die Rae John­son {Part One}

****This con­tin­ues a writ­ing exper­i­ment of blog­ging an apoc­a­lyp­tic ser­ial story. click HERE to read the intro­duc­tion of The Last Tes­ta­ment of Mad­die Rae John­son… Part One:I woke up this morn­ing to the songs of birds.Beyond the laced win­dows peeked blue sky and bright sun. A new day begun. Cof­fee brewed, shoes slipped on feet, I went out­side, to the back, where my flow­ers that I’ve loved and tended wel­comed me with blooms of red and fire orange. With warm cof­fee in hand, I stepped slowly along the rock path that wound through my gar­den like a lit­tle girl’s unrav­eled … Keep read­ing …

A Strong Tree I Stand — a poem from my secret red book of poetry

This is a rare poem that I have writ­ten. I’m not much for poetry, but this is one that brewed in me for the longest time and then it was born. I’ve posted it on this blog before, and I’ve read it sev­eral times in pub­lic venues. It seems right to post it this month of Jan­u­ary as we enter the new year dur­ing the drab, grey sea­son of win­ter. I hope you enjoy the imagery. It still speaks deeply to me every time I read it.                                                                                                                    A Strong Tree A strong tree I stood Con­fi­dent of my vigor and … Keep read­ing …