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The Fail Harder sign at the offices of Wieden & Kennedy is made up of more than 100,000 push pins.

Courage to Fail

I tried hard not to feel self-conscious as a small audience gathered to watch me as I struggled with the pallet mover, also known as a Blue Giant. I pivoted this way and that way, moving ever so cautiously in fear of hitting something or someone and breaking bones. Maneuvering the power equipment was like being a little girl trying to walk a doberman pinscher. I feigned coolness. I got this. I pretended to be indifferent to the half dozen or so of veteran operators watching me struggle. It was my first week at my new job at the Nabisco factory. … Read More …

Release

Mother’s Guilt & the Art that Is Saving Me

A blogger soul sister of mine, My Inner Chick, whose tagline is Attitude with a side of Bitch! recently wrote a post called, Our Stories Become our Lives. She writes: The stories that make us who we are, mold us, shape us, sharpen us, & cause us to breathe in empathy, compassion, kindness. Stories that interweave within our roots, our blood. Stories that make us strong, powerful. E M P O W E R E D. Aware. Educated. Amazing. Our stories transform the universe into something unimaginably better, immeasurably enhanced. Sometimes our stories include rape, domestic violence, cancer, oppression, murder, physical disabilities, discrimination, disfigurement, disconnectedness. Sometimes … Read More …

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My Son Has Cancer

**I wrote this a few days ago. I didn’t want to post it until my son gave the thumbs up. Tonight he did. This is the hardest post I have ever, ever put on my blog. ** * * * * *  “Pam, you need to get him checked out right away. A CT scan and a biopsy,” said the naturopath on the phone. “He has all the symptoms of Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.” After months of mysterious symptoms and many trips to the clinic and seeing several different doctors, all the clues came together and the tests confirmed what the naturopath … Read More …

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A Love Letter (finally!) to My Body

In the summer of 2012, She Loves magazine  issued a call for women to submit love letters to their body. Ugh, I groaned, I don’t think so. My body and I have not been on speaking terms with one another for decades. I couldn’t remember EVER a time of liking my body let alone loving it. I’d have to pass on this one, I told Idelette, the magazine editor. Like a true story-sniffing editor, she proposed I write about that. And so I did.  I posted it the day before my husband and I left to camp in a gorgeous Oregon emerald … Read More …

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Be Kind, Be Sexy

I’m sick this week. I can’t really focus to write much but I did manage to take an old quote of mine and artify it with the fun tools of PicMonkey. I hope you enjoy it. Feel free to print it, post it, pass it on and of course, artify your own quote. Hope you’re having a good week! Let me know if you agree or disagree : Is common kindness a turn on? … Read More …

MANTRA

Letting Go of a Church-Centered Me (Plus, WINNERS Announced!)

***Thanks to all who celebrated with me and participated in my 1000 Sales Giveaway! I am happy to announce that with the good help of RANDOM PICKER I have three winners to announce. (Drumroll……) CARRIE         DEB          J. STAHL Yay! Congratz on winning a signed copy of Unladylike! I can post it in the mail by the end of the week. LEt me know the name you would like me to sign the book to, though Carrie don’t you still live in my zip code? (A great excuse to hook up and catch up!) Deb and … Read More …

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My Rose in Ireland

***This is a rare post about family life for me. As a blogger, I have chosen not to reveal much about my family, especially my children. But I have now been in the  blogosphere for a long while and have enjoyed wonderful connections with my readers. Today, let me introduce you to my daughter Rose. She has just reached an important milestone in her life.*** My daughter Rose was just three months old when we took her on her first road trip. Destination: Ensenada, Mexico. Since that time we have been able to show Rose and her brother places all … Read More …

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In Search of a Little god

“God is beneath the ordinary details of our lives,” wrote someone somewhere in the great big unending heaven of words known as the Internet. Yeah, I believe that too, I thought as I skimmed the post of whereever-ness I found it. That night I sat in my operator chair at work, my fifth month now working graveyard and becoming a day sleeper, just as my dad was when I was growing up, except he was a security guard. I’m a line operator at a Nabisco factory. When the line is running well, as it was this particular night, there is … Read More …